God in His kindness has been exposing my sinful heart to me and though it is not fun I am so grateful for His care. I am so grateful for C.J. Mahaney’s teaching from James 4 on this topic. His example of humility in looking to his own heart during times of conflict have encouraged me to do the same. A pattern that I’ve been made aware of is with my husband. Oftentimes as I am working around the house doing all the necessary things to keep it running efficiently I find myself desiring that he would notice and help out. So, I have a desire for help, but I refuse to ask for specific help because also in my mind is the idea that these things are my responsibility and I shouldn’t expect him to help. So, instead of humbling myself and asking for help I allow resentment and bitterness to take over. This leads to withholding affection, a joyless atmosphere, a martyr attitude…now, I don’t often engage in outward conflict but there is definite tension in my home instead of joy! I would appreciate your prayers as I seek the Lord’s help in actively fighting against this sin in my own heart.

Thank you,
Mindy